I would write and write and write. I would write as much as I could every day of my life, knowing that I had eternity to get out what I need to get out. There are so many things in the world I've always feared I could never get written down in time, but if I could live forever I would have plenty of time to do it.
Walking, running, buying a bike, inventing a car that runs on air, making your own gas, stealing, complaining until someone gives in and lowers the prices...there are a lot of ways o.o
I would attempt to go back in time and fix the mess that I've made of my life.
I believe in A ghost. The Holy Ghost. Does that count?
Um, probably Goku from Dragon Ball Z just because a) he could protect me from anything, b) it'd be interesting and c) coz he could just use his instant transmission to get me the hell off that island!
I love you Sarah, you're always there for me and you've been a real great friend! ^^ You're awesome, my lesbian lover! *tackles you to the ground and hugs the dear life out of you*
Hehe!
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- Music:Until the Day I Die - Story of the Year
God, I gotta get ready for school now, but my stomach hurts like HELL. It feels like someone took a knife and started ripping it around in my stomach. It's probably from purging that pizza last night. That was so dumb, I was still pretty sick.
Anyway I'm gonna try to get my textbooks today, so I better prepare myself for waiting in a line longer than one at freakin Magic Mountain. Blarahaha
Eurgh, can I remind everyone that Kenny is an idiot? >.> Sorry just had to add that before I left. It's pretty much a given.
Anyway I'm gonna try to get my textbooks today, so I better prepare myself for waiting in a line longer than one at freakin Magic Mountain. Blarahaha
Eurgh, can I remind everyone that Kenny is an idiot? >.> Sorry just had to add that before I left. It's pretty much a given.
- Music:What Comes Around Goes Around - J.T
Ugh, I'm so annoyed right now! I'm so behind on my homework because I have NONE of my required textbooks. They're all really expensive, all over one hundred twenty dollars. I mean can you believe that crap? I can't even buy them used because for my Astronomy class, we need an access code for the class website where you submit homework that is only available when you buy the new textbook. I went and withdrew well over three hundred dollars from the bank to head to school to buy them, but the line was so freaking long. I would have been standing in the blazing heat well into the night. I was just too tired to handle that!
I don't even know what textbook I need for my creative writing class or how much THAT one is. Ugh. Do they always have to make things so complicated. That and my student advantage card is about to expire, so I have to buy a new one of those as well. *rolls eyes*
I'm so low on energy though, I keep almost passing out at school. I have to run up a lot of stairs (yes run because I'm ALWAYS running late, no matter what I do) and it takes a lot of energy. I haven't really eaten in couple weeks now and I made myself throw up last night. It was weird my mind was actually getting nervous that I haven't been throwing up so I did it just to make sure I stay in the habit. Weird thing that because I DON'T want to stay in this habit.
>.>
Life bites hard boiled eggs.
I don't even know what textbook I need for my creative writing class or how much THAT one is. Ugh. Do they always have to make things so complicated. That and my student advantage card is about to expire, so I have to buy a new one of those as well. *rolls eyes*
I'm so low on energy though, I keep almost passing out at school. I have to run up a lot of stairs (yes run because I'm ALWAYS running late, no matter what I do) and it takes a lot of energy. I haven't really eaten in couple weeks now and I made myself throw up last night. It was weird my mind was actually getting nervous that I haven't been throwing up so I did it just to make sure I stay in the habit. Weird thing that because I DON'T want to stay in this habit.
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Life bites hard boiled eggs.
- Mood:
annoyed - Music:Give it To Me - Timbaland
Ruined a favorite pair of pants because I had made the mistake of cutting right before going to sleep, so the blood bled through and now its all stained. I hope it comes out.
Gah. I've been binging and purging too much. I'm starting an eight day liquid fast just to cleanse my system of this disgusting filth. Maybe I can feel clean for once in my life.
I wish I can just sew my mouth shut. That would solve so many of my problems. I wouldn't be able to eat or purge.
Gah. I've been binging and purging too much. I'm starting an eight day liquid fast just to cleanse my system of this disgusting filth. Maybe I can feel clean for once in my life.
I wish I can just sew my mouth shut. That would solve so many of my problems. I wouldn't be able to eat or purge.
- Location:In my room
- Music:The Way I Am - Eminem
I started cutting again for the first time in about two years. I had tried to give it up after my dad found out and told me to "Get a new hobby". It's just, last night my stomach was hurting so bad because of purging all of the time, like a real bad twisting pain, and I just felt like I needed to get my mind off of it. Normally I'd paint or write or listen to music but I felt I need MORE this time. So after purging up a bunch of hard boiled eggs I had binged on, I got out the razor I keep hidden in my bathroom drawer, the one I haven't used in near two years, and began cutting up my thigh until I felt like I was satisfied. Right now it's decorated in flaming red cuts but for some reason I really like the way it burns when I walk.
- Location:Computer
- Mood:
bored - Music:The Way You Like It - Adema